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State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
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Sunday, April 23, 2006

When everything else fades away

Loyalty stays..

Do you ever feel like people in our lives that just slowly fade away...Party is over?  What would it take for a friendship to last?  Personally, I can have fun with a lot of different people, but there are very few people who I consider real friends.  I am sure your friends can annoy you at times, once in a while at least. I am very tolerant to people's short comings as long as they don't include disloyalty and competition.  Most of my friendships end with those two reasons. What turns you off?

My sister told me that she recently realized all her friends were talking shit about each other.  People are different, some are picky and some are more laid back.  If you just complain about little things like " so and so is getting on my nerves", it doesn't really bother me.  I had fights with my friends all the time over stupid things. I had two really really good friends who I had so much fun with back in college.  One ended up sleeping with a guy that I was dating and the other one would not stop competing for everything: attention, looks, boys, friends and etc.

It is inevitable that you might get annoyed with your friends, but I am one of those most tolerant people until you betrayed me.  Once I lose trust for someone, everything you do is wrong.  Maybe it's very scorpion thing to do to have a  good and bad list.  If you are on my bad list, you will probably stay there forever.  Maybe it's something that I should work on, forgive, forget and move on...

If there is a start and then there will be an end.. people come and go.. Sometimes you have to cut your friendship short because it's harmful to you to be friends with certain people. What can you do? When everything else fades away, only loyalty stays. Smile and wave good byes at those that don't have loyalty.  Sounds psycho???


Monday, April 10, 2006

Minneapolis

Does anyone know anything about Minneapolis?
Do you think it's a great city to live for a young professional?
I was there for the weekend to see my boyfriend and his family.  I had a great time. I was out in the burb. If I were to live there, I would probably live in Downtown Minneapolis.
I love Chicago and its laid back atmosphere.
What do you think of Minneapolis?


Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Agree or Disagree?

I guess most people at least the ones that I know do not discriminate against gay people.  But when it comes down to marriage, I believe most people still tend to be on the conservative end. (Maybe I could be wrong?)
I am just curious to know what most people in my generation think? At least the educated and well informed ones.  I know a lot of liberal and open minded people who have gay friends.  I have gay friends too and I love pretty gay boys because they are the most wonderful and precious things in the world. 
What do you think of gay marriages?
The following was taken from a Catholic newsletter.  I think it has good points but again who am I to say, I don't know how it feels to be gay....
The newsletter says:

1. Our laws should send a positive messages to children about marriage, family and their future! While same sex couples are free to live as they choose, they do not have the right to re-define marriage for our entire society.

2. It's Common Sense! When we are talking about marriage, we are talking about the foundation of civilization itself. The common sense definition of family is one man, one women, raising children.

3. Marriage is for Children! Destroying the definition of marriage will have devastating effects on our children and grandchildren. Kids raised in homes without a mother and a father are many more times likely to suffer from depression, drug abuse and low educational achievement. They are also more likely to commit crimes and experience poverty.

You can mess up your family  in many different ways. You don't have to be gay to mess it up and plus a lot of gay people are more understanding. You can be a horrible parent by being a drug abuser. Are we just not used to the idea of gay marriages or is it really that bad??? I do think it's unconventional and I have to say I am more used to a marriage between a man and woman. Is it really sinful or we are just not used to the new idea???
Is being gay a choice?


Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Flashbacks

Have you had flashbacks of bad memories?  Tonight, I had one of those anxiety attacks.  I am obesessed with having a sucessful life.  I started a new job at a law firm and I have been extremely hardworking and ambitious. By end of my first week, my boss told me that she was impressed by me and hoped to continue working with me.  I try sooo hard because I am afraid of failing or to be reminded of my personal failure in the past.  I go to the gym every other day because I feel like I am programmed to do so.  As I stepped on the treadmill, I already felt exhausted but I managed to run for 40 minutes anyway. 
Tonight, my boyfriend said he was going to call me, but he didn't call till later.  I had a bad memory of us fighting and him being an asshole. I told him that I just had a flash back of that and I am kind of happy that I told him. My mind raced and I just didn't know what to do....Should I not have told him?

I can't help but being extremely intense sometime.  I almost feel like I am a robot sometimes trying hard to feel good.  I have to live up to the standards that I set for myself.  Am I turning into a type A personality? Or I am already? I just can't tolerate any failure anymore.  It sounds almost scary.  I am having one of those sleepless nights because I am worried and extremely anxious.  I want my career to be successful and I want my relationship to be as perfect as possible.  I am a CONTROL FREAK of my own life. 


Saturday, April 01, 2006

Deeply touched

The great man that touched my heart and soul.  It sounds cheesy but everytime I look at the image of John Paul II, I feel a sense of inner peace and love. He is the reason why I believe all religions could find a common ground and peace with one and other.



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